Chapter 34 of Signal in the Sky
Your Ghost
By Purrsia Kat & Spaced Angel
In the world beyond the Cats’ Lair, life continued as it had always
done. Rain fell steadily onto the luckless people below, damping their clothes
and ruining their tempers. Flowers bent under the deluge and nodded their
colourful heads to the incessant rhythm of the downpour. Today was rain, but
tomorrow would be sun and sweet breezes. The seasons were turning and the
never-ending cycle of birth and death would continue as it had done for many
millennia.
Only in Cats’ Lair had time stopped. The seconds had thudded round until
that moment when the unthinkable had happened and Lion-O died. Since then, time
had been suspended, waiting for that act of release to let life in again. Today
that waiting would come to an end. Today life began again.
From his position by the window, Tygra looked out on the rain-soaked
world and watched droplets of water chase each other down the pane of glass.
When one had run its race, another took its place. Such is life they seemed to
be telling him. Nature abhors a vacuum; a space must always be filled.
The space left by Lion-O would have to be filled. Not physically, as if anyone
could wholly replace all he had been, but as his successor. Ultimately, that
role would one day fall to his son, as it had been with his father. The
difference was that old Claudus had still been there after he had handed over
the Lordship of the Thundercats to Jaga. His son had not been fatherless, at
least not until the great Exodus. Beforehand, Lion-O had understood why his
father had made this decision and when the time came for Lion-O to take the
reins he was still very young but yet, older than
After much discussion among the solemn Council without the children
present, they’d decided to spare the young cub the responsibility. Not that the
boy seemed too worried about that end of things.
If his were the most visible, then there were other, unspoken kinds of
loss. Tygra saw it in Felina’s eyes, the grief for the loss of a partner.
Although he was aware the couple had long since abandoned any sense of
intimacy, he knew too that they had salvaged enough from the ruins of their
relationship to cement a new alliance as friends, bound together in a common
purpose for their children. She said she was coping, but all in the Lair had
heard the sound of sobbing in the dead of night and had borne witness to the
dark circles that bruised the skin below her eyes. Grief for the partner she
had lost cut her deeply, perhaps more so than for any other member of the Lair.
She had come to know a different side of Lion-O and had enjoyed a level of
familiarity to which few of them had been privy. She mourned a companion, as
much as any lover, and the loss set her apart from the others in the Lair.
Furthermore, Tygra mused, she was no doubt frightened at the prospect of
raising the twins without Lion-O there to lend a hand. Of course, the others in
the Lair would step up and assist her in any way they could, but everyone also
knew in their hearts it would never be quite the same. No one knew what to say
to her, least of all how to prepare her for this day. For the first time since
her marriage, Felina was experiencing what it was to be truly alone again Tygra
figured.
She grieved, as he grieved, but Tygra knew his was not to be shared or
given the privilege of revelation. It was borne of more selfish motives and
festered with the deepening insecurities that tortured his soul. With
For himself, Tygra had been ready to concede to any other member of the
council who thought they had a claim on the Lordship. For one thing, it crossed
Tygra’s mind to select someone younger – perhaps WilyKat or Bengali would be
better choices for the physical endurance of their youth if nothing else. Tygra
was much older than when Lion-O first made his intentions known for his
successor, but then it was astutely pointed out that Jaga was no spring cub
when he took the reins from Claudus. Age, it seemed, could be full of
advantages as much as disadvantages, which Lynx-O wisely pointed out. Tygra had
experience and wisdom the younger Thundercats had yet to fully gain. And so,
the others had been in agreement therefore, and it was passed unanimously.
Tygra, like Jaga before him, would be Lord of the Thundercats until the
rightful heir came of age. He had accepted it but had not passed a night in
sleep since.
There were too many variables for his liking. Would he be able to wield
the Sword’s powers effectively? Would he be able to live up to the example set
by others? More worryingly, would the Sword accept him? The agreement of the
council did not mean that the Sword concurred. If the Eye rejected him, what
then? Could he remain head of the council if judged unworthy or tolerated at
all within the Lair’s walls? Yes, maybe the chances were remote, but he’d
studied the Book of Omens enough with Felina to know the Eye bonded with some
better than others, and even still, would not respond at all to others yet. As
a Thundercat, he was relatively sure it wouldn’t shun him totally, but a weak
bond could prove costly. Most of all, the Eye had a strong bond with Lion-O and
that was going to be hard to live up to. Their enemies remained as always,
unchanged. The Thundercats, on the other hand, had lost one among them,
inducted a new leader, and one that probably would be hindered by being unable
to use their most powerful weapon to its full potential. Or so Tygra was
becoming increasingly convinced.
These questions and more had driven him more than once from Cheetara’s
side in the dead of night to seek refuge in work. One of Lion-O’s last orders
was to build another ship that was going to be spaceworthy as part of his dream
to join their countrymen on the new world. It was a reasonable request given
they all couldn’t pile into the Feliner. But even as he put in long nights on
the design after scrapping the idea of simply building a second Feliner, he
wondered at the futility of continuing work on the ThunderStrike, as he’d
dubbed it on the blueprints. But then again, even if the dream of going ‘home’
died with Lion-O, they could always use another sizable ship for their own
protection given the smaller vessels they’d crafted over the years weren’t
going to help against the Mutants’ various flying ships, and in particular,
their Rat Star replica. Vultureman had really outdone himself on that one,
Tygra had to admit. But most of all, work kept Tygra’s mind focused on
something else other than the mantle he would soon take up completely.
He felt wretched and far from the task that faced them all today, that
much was certain. Of all days, this was the one on which the others would look
to him to lead them through their difficulties. This was the day on which all
questions that had nagged at him would be answered. He tried to remind himself
that he was a Thundercat in the hopes that it would bolster his pride and self-assuredness,
but oddly that thought only made the doubts grow. It was simply something else
larger than life to live up to, in a way.
He sensed rather than heard the entrance of another into the quiet room.
He did not turn, knowing who was standing behind him without having to see for
himself. At least in some things, he could still trust himself.
“We are ready,” she said. “If you are.”
A small laugh, the release of pent-up emotion, escaped his lips. “I
doubt I would ever be ready for what must come, Cheetara.”
She came to stand between him and the distant view of the grey horizon,
forcing him to meet her gaze. “Why do you doubt yourself like this, Tygra? You
are Lord of the Thundercats now.”
“Am I?”
“Yes, it was agreed by all of us.”
“In name only. In all the ways that really matter, it is meaningless.”
“Then you must give it meaning,” she insisted. “There is no other to
take Lion-O’s place.”
He shook his head. “Then I am a poor replacement.”
“No one is asking you to replace him. As Jaga made the Lordship his own
after Claudus stepped down, so must you.”
“I am not Jaga, Cheetara.”
“I know,” she said, reaching out to take his hand in hers. “You are
Tygra, the man I fell in love with. I believe in you.”
He squeezed her hand tightly, feeling the burn of tears itching at the
corners of his eyes. “What would I do without you?”
The tears threatened to spill over as he for a moment imagined life
without his love. His heart simultaneously went out to Felina knowing she was
living what he was too afraid to finish imagining.
She smiled. “We’ll get through this together, as we always do. One day
all this will be but a memory, and we’ll look back and wonder how we coped.”
“I needed to hear you say that,” Tygra said, stooping slightly to kiss
her cheek. “I miss Lion-O, but I also hate him for being so stupid and doing
this to us.”
“I’m sure he didn’t mean to die, Tygra. Whatever he was doing, he
thought it was best.”
He nodded. “I know. I’m still mad at him for being so foolhardy with his
intentions, but I’m angrier with myself for these accursed doubts.”
Cheetara stroked his arm reassuringly. “We all have doubts and fears,”
she said. “But they should never stop us from doing what is right.”
There was the sound of a knock at the door and she looked to where
Velouria stood in the doorway, signing that the others were waiting for them
downstairs.
“Tell them we’ll be down in a minute,” she told her daughter, who
hurried away with the message. “We should go,” she said, pulling up the black band
on his arm that had slipped down to his elbow. “You know what you have to say?”
The briefest of smiles flickered across his face. “Making speeches is
one thing I know I can do well.”
“I still say we should have braved the weather and conducted the ceremony
outside,” she said with a sigh, glancing out at the steadily falling rain. “Is
it safe to perform the Ceremony of Rites inside?”
“Felina is confident that it should be. And in deference to her, it is
fitting and proper to hold it inside the Lair. It will be difficult enough
without having the ceremony interrupted by Mutants or Grune.”
“Grune,” Cheetara muttered. “This will have made him too confident.
Perhaps we can capitalise on that.”
“Or not, as the case may be,” Tygra said. “With confidence comes
strength.” Tygra thought he could use a shot of confidence about now.
“And with over-confidence comes arrogance. There must be a reckoning for
Lion-O’s death.”
It struck Tygra that what Cheetara had just said might very well have
been a large part of what ultimately did in Lion-O. Everything in moderation
was old advice, but also good advice, he mused. “Within the bounds of the Code
of Thundera.”
“Naturally,” she said. “How could it be otherwise?”
Tygra sighed. “Lion-O wished it so once.”
She nodded. “He made his choice and this is the result. We either live
by the Code or we do not. We cannot pick and choose to adhere to its principles
when it suits us.” A sudden chill made her shiver. “I’ll be glad when this day
is at an end. The day is bleak enough without this infernal rain."
“You’re cold?” Tygra asked.
The atmospherics in the Lair were preset to maintain a moderate
temperature and he had not detected any perceivable loss of warmth. Reaching
for her cheek, he found the skin cold where a moment before it had been warm.
Even the coldness of the day could not chill one so quickly.
"Are you all right?" he asked with concern.
“It’s nothing,” she said dismissively, turning to leave. “Come, let us
do what must be done.”
Before she moved out of reach, Tygra caught her arm, forcing her stop.
“Cheetara, it was something. You shivered. Is it your sixth sense?”
She gave him a look of annoyance and he guessed he had read her change
of mood correctly.
“What is it?” Dread nagged at his soul, and he held her gaze
unflinchingly as if challenging her to deny what he sensed.
She shrugged. “Do you remember all those years ago, those dreams I used
to have?”
“About an impending tragedy? Yes, I remember.” The enormity of what she
was saying struck him. Losing Lion-O was certainly tragic, but if the feelings
were returning to her now, it didn’t bode well for the rest of them. “Have they
returned?” He tightened his grip on her arm. “Cheetara, if you sense trouble,
you must tell me!”
She pulled free of his grasp. “Is it any wonder after all that has
happened?" She held his gaze for a second before looking away. "I
find myself questioning whether I could have done something to prevent his
death. What use are my abilities if they give me vague warnings of things to
happen so distant in the future?"
"Death has always been a possibility for all of us, Cheetara."
"Yes, but this..." She trailed off into silence, thoughtfully
chewing on her lower lip. "This was so intense, like that time I saw Lion-O
holding Jonca when she was a baby. It was as though their fates were bound in
some way. Now this has happened to Lion-O, I find myself wondering what else my
dreams were trying to tell me."
As much as he longed to ask if those dreams included him, he feared what
her response might be. He already had doubts; to hear them confirmed would only
serve to shake what remained of his battered self-confidence. And if he knew
Cheetara, she would lie to spare him the torture of self-doubt. Better not to
ask, he resolved. Either way, he would not like the answer.
"Perhaps they will leave you again, as they did before, once this
day is behind us," he said, offering her the support of his arm.
"Jaga knows these last few days have been a strain on all of us."
"Especially for Felina and the twins," Cheetara concurred.
"Velouria too. I noticed she has seemed more withdrawn of late."
"It is to be expected," Tygra said as they turned into the
bedroom corridor. "Has she spoken much to you about what happened?"
Cheetara shook her head. "She has not spoken of it once. When I
have asked her, she has been reluctant to confide in me. Although that too is
to be expected, I suppose," she said with a smile, acknowledging their
daughter's advancing years. "It seems like only yesterday when she was a
baby in my arms."
Intentionally or not, the reference reopened old wounds. He could hardly
blame Lion-O's recklessness when his own had caused his daughter's loss of hearing.
Lion-O had sought to protect his family; he, on the other hand, had brought
only harm to his. That was the way he still saw it anyway, despite Cheetara’s
reasoning in the past that it was not his fault he ended up on the island or
that the Thunderkittens brought her along with them when they thought they were
needed. She liked to call it ‘one of those things’ and sweep it under the rug
in favor of moving on, but Tygra was never quite able to let go of the guilt.
Nor could he quite get over the fact that he could build something like Cats’
Lair and yet, fail to make an adequate hearing device for his stricken
daughter. It was another mark against him, another nail in the coffin of his
ailing confidence. At this rate, he told himself, the Sword of Omens would be
sure to flatly reject him.
He had to wonder if this morbid introspection was designed to cause
failure before he had had a chance to prove it in the field. By setting himself
up to fail, was it to prevent further disappointment when it really mattered?
If so, it did not sit well with the Code of Thundera that the Sword of Omens
was pledged to uphold. If there was dishonesty in his actions, then how could
the Eye of Thundera ever answer his commands?
It was one thing to fail, but another to give up without trying. If
Cheetara's fears held even a grain of truth, the Thundercats would be in need
of a leader who believed in himself and the power of the weapon he carried.
Greatness had been thrust upon him, though he had never asked for it or sought
it, yet now it was his for the taking. Lion-O and Jaga had made it seem so
easy, even though they too never asked for the position, often eagerly taking
on the role. Natural born leaders, perhaps, and Tygra couldn’t help but feel he
lacked their boldness and being somewhat shy didn’t help. But the others looked
to him to lead and so he must however onerous the burden. In doing so, he knew
he could fail, but no one would ever be able to say he had not tried. He was
not Lion-O and he was not Jaga, but he was a Thundercat and he’d been given a
job to do. It was as simple as that, and overanalysing it from every angle did
not a single one of them a shred of good, Tygra resolved finally.
He let out a relieved sigh upon finally coming to that conclusion.
"You're feeling better," Cheetara said suddenly, rousing him
from his thoughts.
He wondered for a moment how she knew and, before he could ask, she
smiled.
"Don't worry, I can't read minds yet. I just noticed that you feel
different, stronger even, as though you have reached a decision about
something." She quickly appraised him. "Have you?"
"I can only try," he replied. "All that is asked of me is
that I give of my best."
She nodded. "That is all we can ask of anyone and of ourselves. If
anyone can hold us together now, you can, Tygra. Panthro will stand with you
whatever the odds, as will I, and the younger members respect you. You will
lead and we will follow. We will be a team again, strong in our faith and our
joint vision. We’re survivors, Tygra. We got through our world falling apart
around us and we will get through this."
He brushed a stray lock of hair from her face, savouring the warmth that
had returned to her cheek. He wasn’t the only one adept at making a speech, he
decided. "First we must heal the wounds of the past," he said.
"Then we must move forward."
"Together," she affirmed. “Going on, persevering…it sounds
cliché I know, but I do believe it’s what Lion-O would have wanted for us above
all else.”
"Then let us do what must be done. Come, we have kept the others
waiting long enough. It’s time to say our last goodbyes to Lion-O and say hello
to a new era."
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Despite the pain, Grune felt as though he’d worn the smirk on his face for
days. He remained in keeping a low profile, letting his strength build before
going for the spoils of his victory over the Lord of the Thundercats. But the
most important part was done, finally. Lion-O, the cub Lord, was put in his
place – his final resting place – and all a credit to Grune.
He and that boy jackal sat tucked in a cave just beyond the hills of
Trolls and Giants, waiting out the rain and the battle wounds. It was fortunate
in more ways than one that Grune had come across the boy after all those years,
he mused. Jax was older but Grune found, still easily controlled through fear.
Thanks to the boy’s coerced help, in fact, Lion-O met his end sooner than Grune
had planned. It was Jax that tipped him off to Lion-O lurking in the area, the
trap was sprung, and the rest was, as they say, history. Jax had also helped
keep the other Thundercat, which neither of them had noticed until Grune
already had Lion-O teetering on the precipice of oblivion, from interfering
until it was too late.
It was before all of that happened that Grune thought to try another
tack on Jax. Fear was an easy motivator, and got him to come along with Grune
initially, but Grune could see an evolution in the boy and thought maybe it
might be better to foster a kinship between them. Jax would be taken under his
wing, Grune decided, for he was going to need someone he could trust when the
real fun began, and that left out any of the hooligans that populated Castle
Plun-Darr. Mumm-Ra had not been heard from in the better part of a decade. Jax,
he realized, was starved for genuine acceptance and attention, yearnings that
Grune could relate to on some levels. And yearnings he could surely use to his
advantage. Jax may not be powerful, but like many of his kind, he was fast and
cunning when he had to be and it never hurt to have at least one ally. Sure
enough, the manipulation paid off since applying it shortly after he came upon
Jax in the forest outside the Lair, culminating in the boy coming through when
Grune most needed it.
The bonus reward in this, Grune realized, was that it was highly
unlikely Jax would switch his loyalties back to the Thundercats. Not only had
he confided in Grune Felina’s rejection of him before, but he’d helped destroy
the Lord of the Thundercats. If the Thundercats didn’t want him around before,
they’d never suffer his presence when they learned what he’d done. Or at least,
Grune would be sure to mention should he ever sense that Jax was ever
conflicted or overcome with nostalgia. And that was how Grune wanted it. He
wanted to be the boy’s only hope, the soul he looked up to for guidance,
shelter. The jackal teen was his for the molding. Jax’s help in the demise of
the Lord of the Thundercats sealed the deal and bonded the mutant to him for
good.
Everything worked out better than Grune ever imagined. Sure, it had
taken years, countless failed schemes and attempts on Lion-O’s life, but he’d
finally got him. The small fact that the Sword of Omens was left behind was of
little consequence to Grune now. Without Lion-O to wield it, to which Grune
even had to admit, he had a stronger than usual bond with the mystic weapon,
the Thundercats were at a distinct disadvantage. It was all only a matter of
time until he could make his next move.
One thing the years had taught Grune was patience. Let them keep their
tin sword. Let the one called WilyKat live to tell the horrors of Lion-O’s last
moments. Let them mourn their Lord’s passing in peace. Even let them chose one
to take his place. All of that mattered little to Grune now for he was sure
with the hard part out of the way, the rest of his vengeful dream would be
easily realized. He would break their wills before crushing them beneath his
boots, of this he vowed. Yes, once he and Jax healed from their ordeal, the remaining
Thundercats were in for a world of hurt they likely never fathomed.
And those are the thoughts that made Grune keep right on smiling his
crooked, one-saber smile. He looked over at his new charge, who was leaned up
against the cave wall and snoring loudly. His gaze moved to the cave opening
and the rain fell in sheets of grey outside. It was almost as if the skies wept
for the darkness that was about to swallow up Third Earth, like the heavens
knew what was coming and were powerless to stop it.
Grune’s grin broadened.
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He had searched in the usual places and even in some of the more unusual
places, and still he could not find Lion-O. There were easier ways to locate a
lost soul; the Astral Plane had ways that those initiated into its secrets
could use for their own purposes. Jaga, however, had always tried to resist the
lure of entirely falling into the embrace of this place. Those who did lost
themselves and became one with the ether, forgetting all they had been and all
they had loved. Lion-O had likewise resisted crossing over completely, despite
his earlier willingness. He’d changed his mind, not quite ready to let go of
what he’d known before, and spent the days since wandering aimlessly between
worlds.
One day, Jaga resolved, he would take his place amongst that elect
number that left the old world behind and with luck, have Lion-O join him. But
while he could remember what it was to breathe sea air or savour the scent of a
wild flower, he would cling to this mockery of a life long passed and conduct
his search in his own way. He had not left Lion-O to fend for himself when the
young Lord was still alive, and he would not abandon him in the Astral World
either.
Convincing Lion-O that he had forsaken the mortal world for this plane
of shadows and ineffable energy had been difficult enough; convincing him to
accept his new existence and live as he, Jaga, did was proving impossible.
Lion-O would vanish for long periods and, when Jaga could no longer sense his
soul’s presence, he would know that his charge had once more slipped back into
the world of the living to dwell for hours amongst friends and familiar places.
Then when the strain of his unnatural existence proved too much, he would limp
back, exhausted and frustrated, to spend equally long periods recouping his
spent energy. Jaga himself had never been so foolish, even though, yes, he too
hung on in an in-between sort of existence. But it was not out of an inability
to accept his fate. No, Jaga knew when he refused suspension on the journey to
Third Earth what his fate would be and had reconciled with it long before the
end actually came. He chose to cautiously linger in the misty nothingness only
to occassionally appear to Lion-O and guide the lad. He’d been wise enough to
not linger too long. Rather, he’d simply make his point before slipping back
into he proper realm. Lion-O, on the other hand, died quickly and in his prime
resulting in his soul’s unwillingness to accept it all, his heart overwhelmed
with a sense of unfinished business left to complete back among his living
cohorts.
These were early days, but Jaga knew this yearning to return to the life
he had lost would lead Lion-O down a road that would alienate him forever from the
safety of the Astral Plane. On his visits to the mortal realm, he had
encountered those who had chosen to live as shadows of their former selves.
Shadows indeed they were, pitiful souls, drained to the dregs by an existence
endured in vain to recapture what was gone forever, knowing only misery and
despair that fated them to repeat the same mistakes over and over again. The
elders had spoken of the Astral Plane as a place of forgiveness and peace. Yet
of all the facets of this benevolent world, hope was the cruellest. All had
tasted it and all came to know by degrees that invariably it was false. Lion-O
had yet to learn that lesson and Jaga knew it would take time. However long, he
would be there for him when that realisation occurred. That was, if he could
find him first.
It was obvious that if Lion-O was nowhere to be found on the Astral
Plane, then back with his friends was where he would be found. On this of all
days, Jaga despaired for his charge. He had tried all sorts of distractions to
keep him occupied and Lion-O had feigned interest. But, just as the cub he had
been was poor at deceiving his old tutors, so was the grown Lion-O unable to
conjure up an adequate level of interest. Jaga had half-expected him to return
to Third Earth and his timing could not have been worse.
He was there of course, exactly where Jaga had expected him to be. Light
cast through the rain-marked windows left moving shadows on the floor of the
great foyer of Cats' Lair, where Lion-O's friends had gathered to pay their last
respects. A bier had been set up in the centre of the chamber and to this
Panthro, Lynx-O, Bengali and WilyKat were processing, bearing on their
shoulders a stretcher with a cloth-covered body. Kat struggled somewhat with
his share of the burden thanks to injuries that had not yet healed completely,
but he bore it stoically, dutifully. They laid their burden on the bier in
silence and retreated to a respectful distance, where the women and children
already waited along with Snarf.
For a long time, all that could be heard was the gentle patter of rain
on glass, as though Third Earth was crying over the loss of one of its adopted
children. Then, Tygra spoke, shattering the stillness, forcing the ceremony to
begin.
"Fellow Thundercats," he said gravely. "We are gathered
here today to bid farewell to a lord, a leader, a father..." He paused for
a second to give what he had to say emphasis. "And most of all, to a dear
friend. Above all things, that is how I shall remember Lion-O. That is also what
I shall miss the most. In time, we may one day know other lords and follow
other leaders, but I will never know another like Lion-O. He was courage when
we were afraid. He was strength when we were weak. He was a friend when we were
most in need."
The strain was starting to tell in his voice and he had to clear his
throat.
"I do not pretend to know the workings of the Astral Plane, but I
believe that although we commit to the care of the ancients his physical form
this day, his soul will endure with us forever." His gaze inevitably moved
to where Felina stood, Leon and Jonca standing on either side of her, their
hands tightly squeezing hers. "One who cared so much for those he loved
will never forget them, as we will never forget him."
"Never," muttered Panthro under his breath.
"We will now observe the Ceremony of Rites," Tygra said,
"as has been the practice and tradition of our forebears. Felina?"
In silence, she freed herself from the clinging hold of the twins,
passing their care to a bereaved Snarf, and made her way to the lectern that
had been set up at the foot of the bier. Waiting for her was the Book of Omens,
the appropriate page marked ready for her to read the proscribed passage. In a
clear, steady voice, she repeated the words of the Ceremony that would commend
Lion-O's physical remains into the care of the Book for all eternity, speaking
a tongue borne and shaped from the earliest days of Thundera's history.
Watching the group around her, Jaga observed that, although they
listened with respect, the meaning was lost on them. Even on his granddaughter,
though a student of the ancient tongue was too distracted to follow the
eloquence of the language. But Tygra’s lips moved in silent sync to the words
Felina spoke, comprehension evident in his demeanor. Then finally came the last
line, which Felina spoke in a language familiar to all.
"Of the stars are we born and to the stars we return," she
said. "Thus is the circle of life complete."
The heavy cover of the Book thudded shut on its own accord as she
finished speaking. The Ceremony complete, all that left was for the Book to
fulfil its role. Gathering it up into her arms, Felina carried it over to the
shrouded body and waited as Tygra drew back the covering. Jaga had never been
prouder of his daughter than as he watched her before the body of her dead
husband, composed and unshaken by the ordeal that was streaking the cheeks of
the other members of the Lair with tears.
With the greatest of care, she lifted Lion-O's arms and placed the Book
of Omens on his bare chest, putting his hands, palms down, on its cover. With
equal reverence, Tygra laid the Sword of Omens on top of the Book and both
withdrew several paces. Power recognised power. Sword and Book met in a glow of
light that shone between them like the birth of a newborn star. It grew and
washed out over the still body beneath it, like the ebb and flow of an ocean
wave, gently bathing Lion-O’s physical remains in a brilliance that seemed to
dissipate all it touched.
Slowly, he was dissolved until all that remained was a host of
shimmering stars, waiting for release from their worldly prison. The Book
gathered all unto itself and both book and sword fell onto the flat surface of
the bier with a dull thud. There had been no fanfare, no wailing for a fallen
leader. The last rites of Lion-O, Lord of the Thundercats, had known the
silence from which was born the universe. The Ceremony was at an end and from
somewhere in the Lair Jaga was aware of the ticking of a clock, marking each
second that moved time on and away from the sad events of this day.
All around him the Thundercats once again moved and murmured amongst
themselves, ignorant of his presence, but Jaga could no more leave than could
Lion-O, still as a statue in his corner. As much as Jaga had wished to spare
him, perhaps this had been what Lion-O had needed to finally acknowledge what
Jaga had tried and failed to tell him. He had witnessed his own funeral and the
horror of what he had been forced to understand still showed on his ghostly
face.
Jaga waited as the hall emptied out and silence reigned once more,
leaving a place inhabited only by himself and Lion-O. The elder Thundercat
waited for him to speak, neither rushing him nor attempting to put words into
his mouth. If change had occurred, it needed Lion-O to communicate it, not for
someone else to mitigate the event. And, finally, as Jaga knew he would, Lion-O
found his voice.
"I'm really dead, aren't I?" Lion-O said, sounding like that
small cub Jaga had known all those years ago on a far distant planet called
Thundera. "There's no going back now, is there?"
"No, Lion-O. There never was."
"I hoped..."
"We all do."
"I thought this might be a nightmare. I kept thinking I would wake
up and all this would be a horrible dream. But it's real, isn't it?"
"Reality is what we make of it, Lion-O," said Jaga. "Is
this world real? Has anything that has transpired here today actually happened?
Or like Tygra, have you created an illusion to satisfy your need to give substance
to a world without form?"
Lion-O shook his head. "But if none of this is real, what is?"
Jaga smiled, seeing the first signs of understanding in his charge.
"You are, Lion-O. Change is inevitable, that is the only certainty in this
reality. But what you are will always be. Lion-O will always remain, if not
with you, then with your friends and your wife and children."
Lion-O's eyes drifted back to the empty bier. "Felina," he
whispered. "She was so brave and so alone. I wanted to comfort her, but I
did not know how. If only..." He pursed his lips and squeezed his eyes
tightly shut. "If only I knew a way to tell her how much I loved her. I
have tried, Jaga, but she does not hear me."
"Because you are gone from her reality, Lion-O."
"As were you in mine," countered Lion-O, "but I saw you
often, when I was most in need. Jaga, Felina needs me now and I cannot make her
see me. I have tried so hard. Once I thought Jonca could see me, and some times
I see Cheetara react when I am there, as though she is aware of my presence. If
they can sense me, why not Felina? How did you do it?"
There it was again, cruel hope, waiting to be dashed. How to tell him
that ability would always be beyond his grasp while he clung to the mortal world?
Ironic really, that what Lion-O so craved could only be gained by giving up
what he desperately wanted.
"You are not ready," said Jaga gently. "Such abilities
take time to master."
"Jaga, please," Lion-O said, "teach me how. I have never
been much of a student, but this I will endeavour to learn with all my heart. I
will try if only you will teach me. I have never begged for anything in my
life, but this I do."
It hurt to hear him ask with such desperation in his voice. Death was
indeed the great leveller, Jaga thought. The proud were reduced to the level of
the pauper and forced to meanly beg for even the smallest of favours. What
Lion-O sought was as far beyond his comprehension as the understanding of the
simplest of the universe's secrets. But Jaga knew he could not be so hard and
unfeeling. Unless Lion-O had some comfort, he would cling to that same cruel
hope that trapped so many unfortunate souls in the mortal world in the mistaken
belief they could regain that which they had lost.
"What you ask is impossible," Jaga began, holding up his hand
for silence when he saw Lion-O's mouth open in protest. "There are,
however, other ways which might equally serve your purpose."
"Teach me, Jaga, I must know."
"Then come, Lion-O. You have much to learn."
***************
Hours later, Jonca sat with the other children in the room they all
shared, which once served as Velouria’s nursery. Toys were scattered about in
such abundance, one could barely see the floor. Normally, she knew, Snarf would
have none of it but since her father’s passing, the old nursemaid hadn’t been
making his usual rounds. Disarray was allowed to rule the day.
Not that her playmates were in much of a mood to play. She was
responsible for most of the mess, and hummed a bouncy melody as she scooped up
two dolls and began playing make-believe with them. Her companions’ somber
moods were hardly a hindrance to her, and stood out in stark contrast to her
upbeat demeanor.
A tug to her arm brought her out of her playtime fantasy, and she looked
up at Velouria expectantly.
Jonca spoke aloud the words Velouria signed to her. “How can you play
like that? Aren’t you sad about the funeral today? Your father has died.”
Jonca scowled slightly, annoyed that the older child treated her as if the
simplest ideas hadn’t occurred to her.
Jonca glanced briefly at her twin, who laid curled up on his bed across
the room, but even
Jonca sighed and shrugged. “Mama said he’s in a better place, so why
stay sad?” she offered meekly, which she could tell Velouria didn’t believe for
an instant.
Velouria shot back a sentiment that if it had been her father that died,
she’d never stop crying.
Jonca fought the urge to shove the girl for the signed remark. If she
wanted the truth, here it was. “Well, for your information he’s not gone! Now
leave me alone.” That told her, Jonca thought with some satisfaction, ready as
ever to resume her play.
Clearly, Jonca was going to have to draw them a picture. “I’ve seen
him,” she elaborated. “Don’t you? He was there at the ceremony today. I waved
to him, remember? I don’t think he noticed, though.”
Jonca had been too fascinated to try to talk to her father’s ghost
before, and the acknowledging of his presence by waving shyly to him today was
the first attempt she’d had at making a connection.
She’d just assumed that everyone in the room could see her father when
he was there. It never occurred to her that she was the only one or that she
had to point out his presence.
Velouria regarded her skeptically. Of course he didn’t notice, silly,
Velouria chastised, he’s dead, remember?
Jonca hated being mocked in, of all things, sign language. Her ire was
rising.
“No, you don’t get it. Not the one laying down that disappeared, the
ghost one! The one in the corner.”
Jonca looked from one stunned face to another, before her brother broke
the uncomfortable silence.
“Liar!” he declared, before storming out of the room.
Jonca felt her own shock at being met with such disbelief. Surely,
Velouria waited for
It was Jonca’s turn to feel indignant. She reached over and touched
Velouria’s face to get the older girl to look at her again. “It’s not a joke. I
can see him sometimes. He’s all see-through and blue but it’s him. His ghost. I
can’t hear him though. It’s too bad you haven’t seen him – you could tell us
what he’s trying to say by reading his lips. He keeps trying to talk to mom.
He’s around her a lot.”
Velouria remained still, taking this information in for a moment before
asking Jonca, with some hesitation, if Lion-O was in the room with them now.
Jonca scanned their surroundings and found they were alone. “No.”
Velouria took to looking around the room, and Jonca could tell her
friend doubted her still. It hurt quite a bit to be disbelieved so, but she
swore on the Eye she told the truth. Unless her eyes deceived her, she’d seen
the form of her father a few times since he died. The idea that she could only
see her father was something she’d never considered. She’d taken it for granted
everyone else could see him just as easily and took the same comfort in his
presence as she did. And now Jonca wondered if any among the grown-ups could
see him or if they’d also push her claims aside.
*****************
The map of Third Earth displayed on the main view screen showed the
irregular blotches of cloud moving steadily away to the west. Tomorrow promised
to be a fine day. At least it promised to be a better day, Felina told herself,
having come up to the control room rather than spend more time alone in their,
or rather, her room. Anything had to be better than the day she had just
endured.
The Ceremony of Rites had drawn a final line under their relationship,
as if to signify that by consuming Lion-O's body, all trace of him had been
removed from her world. That thought had first struck her when she had
witnessed his atoms free themselves from his rigid physical form and escape
into the other world within the Book of Omens. He was gone, not just
spiritually, but in essence too. It was as though he had never existed at all,
as though he had been some figment of her imagination, conjured up in some
fevered frenzy. She feared that any moment she would speak his name and the
others would look at her as though she were mad.
That thought had driven her to their room shortly after the ceremony,
where she’d rifled through his clothes and pressed them to her face, breathing
deeply to inhale his scent. Even on the newly laundered clothes, he was still
there, familiar and strangely comforting. He was there too, in the stray hairs
that remained on her brush, which he borrowed when he thought she was not
looking to tame his own unruly mane. Felina vowed never to change the way the
room was left, in as far as the things he’d left out or undone, fearing if she
tidied up his things or packed them up, she’d lose the last worldy vestige left
of him. She knew his smell, his peculiar way of folding and arranging things,
yet if asked to conjure up his image, his face was fading from her mind. For
most of the afternoon, she had lain on the bed staring at his photo on the
pillow beside her, trying to remember what it felt like to have him beside her
again. She tried to remember his warmth, or how it felt to feel his breath on
her skn. She wondered if what Tygra had said during the ceremony would endure,
or if with time, everything about Lion-O would also fade including her memories
of him.
When all it achieved was to emphasise the fact that he was no longer
there to fill that space in her bed, she had sought refuge elsewhere, being
helpful where she could. She had found herself helping Snarf to fold washing,
as it seemed he too was trying to quash his grief in the everyday routines of
Lair life. That done and conversation lacking, she finally headed up to the Control
Room, where Bengali was cataloguing weather patterns for the coming weeks. She
could tell he found her presence uncomfortable, not through any sense of
malice, but because of her loss. It was a feeling she was getting used to, as
it seemed few of them knew what to say to her. She felt bad for them when they
struggled in vain to find words of comfort and healing. The truth was, there
just weren’t words. She had tried to put him at ease, as she had during
previous, similar encounters. Felina knew she was failing miserably when her
best efforts failed to stop his relentless need to say something just to fill
the silence with any sort of noise.
It was mostly nonsense, but she found it welcome. Any sound was better
than the noisy clamour of her thoughts and by engaging with him in his
ramblings, both found a sense of peace until finally they had no good reason to
remain any longer.
"Well, I've got to take these down to Tygra for decoding,"
Bengali explained needlessly, waving the data disk with the necessary
information vaguely in the direction of the door.
Felina nodded, trying to act as though this was a revelation to her,
despite having done this same task many times in the past. It was important, if
boring work. Many people on Third Earth had come to depend on the Lair's
ability to predict the coming weather patterns with reasonable accuracy. The
Berbils arranged their planting season and harvest according to the
Thundercats' information, and in thanks gave to them a fair share of their
crops. The sun always shone on the Wollos' festivals and Willa had managed to
save over ninety per cent of the trees in the forest that would normally have
been lost to lightning strikes. News like that made the long hours of decoding
and analysing all worthwhile, but it never stopped it being ultimately tedious.
While Bengali went on his errand, she had promised to watch over the
central computer while it made the necessary computations for long distance forecasting.
It went about its business like a contented metal beast, chewing over the
information it had compiled with a series of whirrs and clicks. Data transfer
consuls whined and purred, putting Felina in the mind of some giant cat that
had crept into the room and was about to pounce on her. She twirled in her
chair just to be sure, smiling to herself in remembrance of how such silliness
would have driven Lion-O mad. Some times he could still be too serious. Just
before he had died, she’d not heard him laugh in a while. His main concern had
been about the possibility of reuniting with the gathering bands of Thunderians
on the planet called New Thundera, and it reminded her of how driven he’d been
when Bengali and the others were discovered to be out there in the wilds of
Third Earth in need of rescue. She also remembered their struggle on Fire Rock
Mountain and how several of them, including Lion-O, almost died trying to
realize that dream. Lion-O’s luck, it seemed, finally ran out with this
mission.
Still, it was strange to think so many other survivors of old Thundera
were out there somewhere, ignorant of the death of their hereditary leader.
They had lived parallel lives for so long, until finally they had touched and
tragedy had followed soon after. If it was always to be so, then Felina was
happy to forget any thoughts of finding this home world despite the small bit
of guilt born of a willingness to abandon that which Lion-O was so passionate
about he died trying to make happen. The others would not give up so easily,
perhaps spurred on by a sense to honor Lion-O’s memory by going home. She
wondered how long it would be before talk of finding a way home returned to the
weekly council meetings. About the same time things got back to normal, she
guessed, however normal was supposed to feel now. For her, she was sure she
would recognise it by its emptiness. The empty chair, the empty wardrobe, the
empty bed; all these were fast becoming familiar in her new world and she was
aware that she was growing to accept them, faster than she had anticipated.
The children were another issue altogether, and as much as her presence
made the others feel awkward, she could relate. Felina found herself struggling
to help her children cope, though barely coping at times herself wasn’t making
it easier. Leon had been far too quiet and sullen, never giving away a hint of
what was going on in his heart or mind no matter how much she begged or tried
to distract him. Jonca, on the other hand, recently had nearly the opposite reaction.
She seemed uncharacteristically upbeat for just having lost her father, and
Felina had no idea how to deal with either child’s emotional needs.
But then no grief could last forever. Not hers or theirs. Already, she
knew the memory of grief and she had no urgent desire to revisit that painful
initial feeling. Its ache had dulled to bearable levels, so much so that she
had been in control of herself more than she had expected to be during the
Ceremony of Rites. It had been a strange feeling, almost as though she was
watching herself at a distance performing a role. She had moved and had spoken
the words of the ritual, and was aware on some level that it was indeed she who
had done those things, but it felt as though it had happened to someone else in
another place, in another reality. Some day, she supposed she would get used to
the feeling. Until that time, she felt strangely dislocated, like an alien
being in inhospitable surroundings, listening to a voice that sounded so like
Lion-O’s, repeating her name over and over again. At least she could remember
the sound of his voice. But suddenly she questioned if it was memory or…
Snapping out of her reverie, she realised that the voice was not a
figment of her imagination. She could hear it still, sounding indistinct and
muffled, like someone calling from a great distance. Out of boredom, she had
been fiddling with the Lair’s radio frequencies, half listening to the idle
chatter of the local galaxy. She had left it tuned to static and through the
hiss and crackle had come the voice. Turning up the volume, she listened to the
faint message. A second later, she was yelling for the others.
Cheetara was the first to reach her and Felina did not give her the time
to ask what had happened to cause such a reaction.
“I’ve heard him!” she said. “He’s here, listen, in the static on the
radio.”
“Who, Felina?”
“Lion-O. He’s calling to me. Listen for yourself.”
Cheetara gave her a doubtful look. “Felina, Lion-O is dead. There is no
way he can possibly be on the Lair’s radio receiver.”
“He is,” she insisted. “I swear on my honour as a Thundercat. I heard
him, repeating my name over and over. Listen for yourself.”
She turned to the radio, hiking the volume up to its maximum limit. Now
it was her turn to doubt. The airwaves were filled with static, the remnant
sounds from the birth of the universe finally penetrating this distance from
its epicentre after millions of years. Frantically, she adjusted the frequency,
trying to recapture his faint message. It was gone, like he was, just a ghost
of a memory of what had been.
“I don’t understand,” Felina said, dropping into the nearest chair after
lowering the volume in defeat. “I was sure I heard him.”
Cheetara’s hand came to rest on her shoulder. “This has been a trying
day for all of us, Felina.”
“You think I imagined it, don’t you?”
Cheetara shook her head. “I believe that you believe you heard something. Whether it was Lion-O or wishful
thinking, I cannot say.”
“It sounded like him,” she replied in a small voice. The grief she
thought she had contained was burning itself across her emotions again,
tightening around her throat and bringing hot tears to her eyes. “I want him
back, Cheetara. Is that so wrong?”
“No. If there were a way, none of us would hesitate in trying to restore
him. But it cannot be. He is gone, Felina.” Her hand slid under her arm and she
gently guided Felina to her feet. “You need rest,” she suggested kindly.
Felina bowed her head, although Cheetara’s mentioning of restoration lit
some vague idea in the back of her mind. Something in the Book, some kind of
way, her conscience nagged. But then, blinded by grief and an impossible hope,
Felina dismissed it as more imaginings from an exhausted mind. She was tired
and in sleep there was a kind of refuge. She allowed Cheetara to take her to
her room and settle her in the bed, as meek as any newborn kitten.
“Sleep is a great healer,” she said, dimming the night light to a faint
glow.
“I